I've felt the change, I've felt that cold hand laid across my heart.
When I sat out side under the winter night sky tonight; feeling the harsh burn of the smoke and taking in all the smooth beats of Billie Holiday's 'I'll be seeing you'. I felt the change, I felt this sudden chill, then it stayed. It's like my heart just froze and I did not know how to react to it. Has my body gone into defense mode? It's almost cruel, but the part where it felt more pleasant was the most frightening. Could I ever love again? I don't even tear anymore. What has become of me...?
Listening to Billie's voice, truly the voice of an angel, as I wondered around aimlessly in the middle of the night. I asked God how exactly do you play this game you've set up for us, that we call 'life'? Is there rules to this magic we so call 'love'? How could we be punished by it when we don't even know the rules?
Silence...
What has become of me...?
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