Woke up this morning feeling a bit crooked, not sure why, but maybe some of those sleepless nights and those constant nightmares are finally catching up to me.The first thing I felt was emptiness; a very super, big, fat one staring right back at me. It's that stupid elephant, people would normally call it depression, but I call him Eddy.
Eddy would actually be a good friend if he doesn't always take up so much space and your time. Most of the time alone I spent with Eddy, he seems pretty nice at the start, but once your in his company for too long he gets irritating. He would follow you around like a big baby. When you go to the shops, people would stare but keep their distance. They generally look at Eddy's size and go wow, but afraid to get his attention, because if Eddy sees you like him, he would invite his friends around to follow you.
I feed Eddy heart aches and loneliness most of the time, silence would be our audience; they seem to like my muted show a lot. I would tell Eddy about my troubles and odd dreams that I had, the things you can't really just walk up to someone and start a conversation on. Eddy would listen, he hears it all with his big flapped ears, but he doesn't speak. I could tell by his expression that he understands me, he gives me the warmth back to feed my emotions and he comforts me. These days I begin to think that maybe I am the one feeding off poor Eddy, not the other way around. That thought scares him.
Eddy follows me around a lot lately, it is hard to lose him. I would run around the corner to hide or escape by listening to music when he irritates me, but he would always know what I'm doing or where I am...
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